True Bisexual Angst: part zwei.

For my recent birthday, I vowed to be open to my interest in women as well as men. Last night I blew two chances to express it. Both these women flirt shamelessly with me, and only know me to be the gay guy. The one that bothers me most is the super model looking one. She and I have a mutual friend that is a very sexy man. She is only here from New York once or twice a year. She was looking at "JM" and said he is so sexy. Later she and I were talking and I just teased "Is JM flirting with you?" and she said so, I then countered with, "cause I thought he was flirting with me!". I then leaned over and said but I know the secret of my getting with him. she leaned over and asked me. I said he doesn't sleep with guys alone, but he does sleep with couples. She looked at me non-plussed and said "We could be a temporary couple". Now, I did not follow up on that. What would have been a good response to that. Hell, I should not have even needed that in to let it be known. But I guess my question is. How to I discretely tell women that know me as gay, that I am interested in them physically?

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True Bisexual Angst

I am now playing with two married men that are fooling around with me behind their wive's back. I take the convenient attitude that it is mostly their problem, and if it was not with me it would be with someone else. It fits 'my friends with benefits' needs and there is little or no chance they'll want a relationship with me.

I do not think this is true swinging. In each case I ask if their wife would be interested in a 3way, and they look at me like I am from the Planet Claire.

I am not very possessive with my partners when I am with them, but usually insist on the rules for me apply to you as well. and Its not cheating if the rules allow it. I had one guy say he'd break up with me if I ever cheated on him, yet he cheated on me 3 times. What's up with that?!?

With the first guy, he's married since we had last done anything. I asked him to make sure it was ok with his wife. I did not want the guilt associated with messing up his marriage. He explained he was the same old same old he always was, and has already "fooled around" on his wife and it would be nothing new. The reason I rekindled the FWB relationship is pretty serious, and some readers may understand, some may not. I will explain it.

I had major surgery early this year. The Sex after surgery pamphlet, I received, explained when I should be able to resume sexual activity. But it cautioned I should do so with a regular partner, saying a new partner would cause undo stress, and may be problematic. My dilemma was, while I was not well, I had a very long dry spell. I had no regular partner, especially one I could call out of the blue and say "hey wanna fuck, to make sure I still can, without blowing up"?

Except this guy. I called him and explained the sitch, and he agreed - imagine that. I was his first guy ever, and now he is like a bisexual spokesmodel (LOL). This kind of bond is difficult to break. So anyway, he comes over one night, and we basically became 2 monkeys for a night, and I was happy to learn everything worked with no side effects.

ALSO, since then, I feel 21 years younger now and have had a lot of great sex since. Mostly of the kind the booklet warned against! The other married guy is a bi-curious ex-football player that seems to step out on his wife quite a bit. Well, I assume so since his profile says "single", but when I asually asked him if he was indeed married he said yes, with not much hesitation.

This article is more a treatise on my thoughts of this, that I just did not feel like blogging about. I read the comments on my articles, and would really be interested in what people have to say about what I am writing about. I love discourse.

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Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.

This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.

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sex sex sex

I cannot believe the sex I am getting lately. Its like I am going through my second peak. Maybe I am. I had some major Os on saturday, burst a blood vessel or two. I think it was the nitro glycerine. Not sure if there has been studies on that or not.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.

This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.

PLEASE STAND BY...

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