Wednesday, May 11, 2005

still hacking

I have half a dozen blogs going. I have been very busy with my job. So a lot of my thoughs have been spread around to the various locals. I try to keep this one real personal. If you want to read some of my cabbie stuff go to http://louiethecabdriver.blogspot.com/

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Shotgun Wedding

Years ago, I became an Ordained Minster in the Universal Life Church. I have performed now 3 weddings, officiating 2 Kentucky marriage certificates. The most recent was this week.

Monday afternoon I get a call from a friend and she asks me if I can marry her and her boyfriend. I ask when, and she says that day. I am puzzled, but I quized her and made sure she knew it was totally legitimate, and she did. She had the marriage certificate all made out already. She wants a real ceremony this summer and for me to officate then as well. Meanwhile, I said for her to come on over and be sure to bring two witnesses.

I had been cleaning house for a few days and am very glad I had. A couple hours later I got a call that they were on their way over. I slipped into a Tartan Kimono and of all things a Chinese hat. Never one to match much, I went for a beaded belt instead of the traditional Obi. It was a good thing I did, because they showed up with a video camera and dressed to the nines. I double checked with the groom to make sure that once the certificate is signed by me, and filed with the county, they will have to get a divorce to end it. he understood.

I was expecting a simple formality, and they then start asking for vows. Chronic trouble carrier, Gina agreed to write vows for the groom. They were odd and personal to say the least. The bride's were brief. They had a video camera and were videoing the process and my dog jumping up on them, and me doing the officiating, and the cell phone rings. It was the mother of the bride. She had decided to come after all, and was on her way. Soon the doorbell rings and I have a full blown wedding party in my living room. The best man, started complaing that he had to get back to work so we made sure we had all his information down, and he was free to go. We made small talk for a bit, and they were on their way.

You can call it a wedding if you like, I call it just another monday episode in my Reality Show.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

I have so many things racing through my head.

dreams, plans, ideas, desires

my adderall has got me in chatterall mode.

I cannot even stay focused on my non-focus.

I am switching to listology to make a list of things I want to do.
--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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Friday, December 03, 2004

Media Whoring

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Friday, November 26, 2004

True Bisexual Angst: part zwei.

For my recent birthday, I vowed to be open to my interest in women as well as men. Last night I blew two chances to express it. Both these women flirt shamelessly with me, and only know me to be the gay guy. The one that bothers me most is the super model looking one. She and I have a mutual friend that is a very sexy man. She is only here from New York once or twice a year. She was looking at "JM" and said he is so sexy. Later she and I were talking and I just teased "Is JM flirting with you?" and she said so, I then countered with, "cause I thought he was flirting with me!". I then leaned over and said but I know the secret of my getting with him. she leaned over and asked me. I said he doesn't sleep with guys alone, but he does sleep with couples. She looked at me non-plussed and said "We could be a temporary couple". Now, I did not follow up on that. What would have been a good response to that. Hell, I should not have even needed that in to let it be known. But I guess my question is. How to I discretely tell women that know me as gay, that I am interested in them physically?

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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True Bisexual Angst

I am now playing with two married men that are fooling around with me behind their wive's back. I take the convenient attitude that it is mostly their problem, and if it was not with me it would be with someone else. It fits 'my friends with benefits' needs and there is little or no chance they'll want a relationship with me.

I do not think this is true swinging. In each case I ask if their wife would be interested in a 3way, and they look at me like I am from the Planet Claire.

I am not very possessive with my partners when I am with them, but usually insist on the rules for me apply to you as well. and Its not cheating if the rules allow it. I had one guy say he'd break up with me if I ever cheated on him, yet he cheated on me 3 times. What's up with that?!?

With the first guy, he's married since we had last done anything. I asked him to make sure it was ok with his wife. I did not want the guilt associated with messing up his marriage. He explained he was the same old same old he always was, and has already "fooled around" on his wife and it would be nothing new. The reason I rekindled the FWB relationship is pretty serious, and some readers may understand, some may not. I will explain it.

I had major surgery early this year. The Sex after surgery pamphlet, I received, explained when I should be able to resume sexual activity. But it cautioned I should do so with a regular partner, saying a new partner would cause undo stress, and may be problematic. My dilemma was, while I was not well, I had a very long dry spell. I had no regular partner, especially one I could call out of the blue and say "hey wanna fuck, to make sure I still can, without blowing up"?

Except this guy. I called him and explained the sitch, and he agreed - imagine that. I was his first guy ever, and now he is like a bisexual spokesmodel (LOL). This kind of bond is difficult to break. So anyway, he comes over one night, and we basically became 2 monkeys for a night, and I was happy to learn everything worked with no side effects.

ALSO, since then, I feel 21 years younger now and have had a lot of great sex since. Mostly of the kind the booklet warned against! The other married guy is a bi-curious ex-football player that seems to step out on his wife quite a bit. Well, I assume so since his profile says "single", but when I asually asked him if he was indeed married he said yes, with not much hesitation.

This article is more a treatise on my thoughts of this, that I just did not feel like blogging about. I read the comments on my articles, and would really be interested in what people have to say about what I am writing about. I love discourse.


--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

sex sex sex

I cannot believe the sex I am getting lately. Its like I am going through my second peak. Maybe I am. I had some major Os on saturday, burst a blood vessel or two. I think it was the nitro glycerine. Not sure if there has been studies on that or not.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

so i join a sex personals site

Since my uber recovery from my heart troubles, I have noticed not a resurgence in my sex drive, but a surgence. I feel like I am 20 again, and have the hormones to prove it. I had taken advantage of this sex website's free membership. Finally I decided to splurge the $20. One of the features is free member webcam broadcasting. I can look through the "who's broadcasting their webcam" list and blug in. I can sort by men, women, women & men, 2 women or 2 men. Well there are a lot mroe men broadcasting. I guess we are all show offs. Its interesting when a guy sees a guy viewing. Some get a kick out of it, some immediately turn their cam off. Others have asked me to stop watching. One guy though decided he was going to give me a show. He cam up to the camera and turned around and spread his ass cheeks. I guess if he likes to view gynocological shots of women, gay men want to see analogicial shots of men. I don't. A guido from brooklyn, was just chilling in his wife beater with no pants. When I would score him low, he'd stand up and wave his dick at me. Very funny. It was like I was classically condition the exhibitionists. You xan score them 1-5 or no score. I do not think many people use it. Anyway, if they did stuff I liked I bumped it up. sometimes a lot, sometimes a little. I liked the guido enough to keep him a 4 most of the time. Then I would rate him a five then immidiately drop down to a 1. He'd stand up and wave his dick at me, I'd give him a five and so on. This girl I was watching would get a five every time she smiled. I also encouraged her to show her breasts. Its a very weird experience.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.


This is the motto on the Phillips coat of arms.


PLEASE STAND BY...

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Monday, October 25, 2004

This is Huge

\Last night I was reading an article in Vanity Fair about Johnny Cash's last
ten years with his new record producer. It also talkd about June's poor
health.

Somehow, when reading it, I realized I lost my Five -Year fixation. I am
not sure how forthright I have been on this here blog about my 5 year
premonition. I just could not make plans for anything beyond 5 years. I
think I fixated on that timespane because so much of the success literature
refers to success rates before and after 5 years. Well latley my mood has
been very elevated. My "joie d'vie" has been "très magnifique".

I feel like I did at 20.

I was concerned about this 5 year plan. I have heard about a lot of
"anniversary" deaths. People hoping to live for one more Christmas,
birthday, aniversary, new year, or very special episode of "friends". Then
they seem to give up. They attained their goal. One of my goals with
counseling was to get away from that time thought. I kicked it without
realizing it, until last night. Earlier I was reading about this supposed
time travel guy John Titor and what life is supposedly going to be like in
2035. While skeptical I put myself in that year as well, and wondered if I
would like it. I'll be 62 then. It may be a while since I have done
"higher math" but I believe, even given the sorry state of education in
america today, most school children woutl agree that 31 years is greater
than 5 years.
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