Card Party and Absinthe Night

I am close to having my house ready for a party. I want to start with something small. Maybe 8 people and cards. Two tables of 4. We could play "progressive Canasta". I could also explore exposing them to some of my vintage out of print commercial card games. I have thought about suggesting this event at the Gay Pride center, but a lot of the people that would go, are not people I want as friends. Nice people, but a little dull. Possibly of the shut-in variety. I should talk, as I am practically a hermit at the moment. But I do not shun crowds.

I wanted to do an Absinthe party in April, but my detour through the hospital put that on hold for a while. My friend Marc goes to Spain a lot, and brought back some Absinthe for me, but did not get enough for me. I have the "absente" USA Legal relation to absinthe, and two spoons.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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White Party

There is a white party this Thursday at Voce. Bob asked if I wanted to be an atmospheric model again, like when I was Neptune for the Rockus Bacchus event at the civic center. This basically means I get in free, get to dress fabulous, and basically be the superstar I like to be. No I am modest, really. Who does not like to be a superstar? Sofar I am thinking of a totally white sailor suit, covering the black with white sequin. Sequining up the sailor cap and all. It should be good. Trouble is, I have a job interview the next morning. Should I reschedule? Probably.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Sibelius

My aunt told me not too long ago, that we were related to Sibelius through marriage. I have searched for the link, but have had no success. The reported link is my grandfathers mother's sister, his aunt. I Guess that would make Jean my great grand uncle? The problem with the story is, she was reportedly his "second wife" and all biographys have hijm married to Aino and preceeding her in death. Was second wife a euphomism for mistress?

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Dreams

I had a dream last night. We were all at my grandparents old house. My family, an un-named man and myself. Somehow it became time for bed, me and the other guy stayed up. It became apparent to me sleeping arrangements had not been made, and there were no beds. I secretly did not mind the prospect of sleeping with this man, but did not know where it would happen. I think we may have assumed we'd sleep together but everyone else scattered through the beds. I woke my mom complaining there was not place for "us" to sleep. There were plenty of people sleeping single in a double bed. Despite there only being two bedrooms in my grandma's house.

later in the same house, we were discussing lunch. I remember saying, as long as it does not have mayonnaise. My grandma said "everything has mayo here", I replied I'll have to scrape it off then or make a new one.

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Ok so is the sleeping thing a way of addressing my Mom's inability to deal with my being gay? Is the mayo incident a reminder I have to be diligent with my careful eating? Everything has mayo, seems to be close to everything has sodium.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Reuse, recycle, redecorate

One good thing about being a packrat with plenty of storage space, is I an accumulate, and ultimate redecorate on a whim with virtually no budget. My attic, basement and garage is filled with accessories and art that I rotate throughout the house, as my tastes change. My living room is moving toward a 60s mod look, by bedroom that of a fish camp, my TV room will resemble a small theatre, my kitchen an Asian theme and my windows will be in primary colors. My back yard is destined to become Grecian. Not ancient, but white and blue like the Greek Isles.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Gay.com Health

Natural alterives to Viagra?
Gay.com Health: "3. Perineum flexors: A lot of men spend hours at the gym trying to beef up their bodies so they can be sexy, but fail to exercise the most important muscle of all. The perineum is the point between the scrotum and the anus. According to the vedic scriptures of India, this is where the kundalini energy enters the body. Kundalini energy is what 'puts the air in our tires,' so to speak. The more open we can make this area, the more energy gets pulled in and thus the more intensely we get aroused. To exercise this area, lie on your back with the soles of the feet touching; let the bent knees drop toward the floor. Now begin to squeeze and release the perineum about 50 times. If you are having trouble isolating this muscle, imagine pulling the testicles back toward your anus. Each contraction should take about one second as should each release. Although you should feel immediate results, you should do this daily to really keep the pilot light on. "

Chevy Equinox

Now there is a second commercial that is using my theme song as its jingle. For the Chevy Equiniox. Earlier I was shocked to hear it for a clothing store in Minneapolis. But now its a car commercial? I do like pulling out of my driveway with it palying in the CD Player

the song is Mini Skirt by Esquivel

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Opening up

I was pretty honest on my other blog today. The one my mom reads. I wonder if it will get any reaction. Basically I am sick of talking about being sick. How are you doing is startinhg to get on my nerves. I realize it is people caring about me. Its not like they are asking, so how much did you make last year? They're not being nosy, but I want to be more than a sum of my injurys.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Procrastination

I am having a difficulty time accomplishing things right now. I think I am lilting into a depression again. Fortunately I have an appointment with a counselor next week. If I can get through this week. Things weighing on me now include my messy house, my undone bankruptcy, my animals, and obviously my health. I am also not looking forward to looking for work. I don't want to not work either. I am really torn. I know I will not be able to live on disability income and am forbidden to make more than $800 a month.

My budget is hovering in the $2000s per month. Over $500 of that is medicine. I may have found cheaper sources for some of it.

Things I can do to motivate myself.
make shorter lists - did it
perhaps I can focus on the goal of what the actions will do.
Treat it like a promise to myself.
Understand by putting it off, I'll still have to do it.
Understand the sooner it is done, the sooner it is not hanging over my head.
As I write these out, it all makes so much sense.

--Motto--
Mens conscia recti
-a Mind concious of what is right.
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Welcome to Cicada Watch 2004

Welcome to Cicada Watch 2004